Dear You,
You know what is hard? Missing a lot of things that everybody has stopped missing.
It is ironic to have your presence felt the most when you are not present at all. Silence is strange. Sometimes it holds you together and sometimes it breaks you down. But most of the times, I think, I break my own heart. Nobody is responsible for my expectations. Don't worry, though, most of the times my heartbreaks are about things like a Physics exam gone horribly wrong. But pain is pain, no matter how small. I think I saw my friend tearing up while she told me how she forgot everything right before the exam. Tears will be tears; they make everything seem worse or better.
Yes, yes, I know I should be studying. There is something about the winter wind, the cold ground and the ringing silence that gives me goosebumps; as if something fascinating is about to happen; as if life will start prancing and squealing any instant and this is only the calm before the storm. And the cat outside just shrieked hysterically, probably pouncing on another cat. I told you it felt like something was about to happen.
Time makes the future seem particularly far away, just when it is around the corner. I am very impatient right now and I really cannot wait for next Thursday. But it seems forever away.
Sometimes I feel like I am trying to catch up with things that don't have the time to wait for me, or even the patience to listen to my frantic footsteps as I follow them. And then I stop in my tracks, turn around and eventually go back to catching up with myself. I think, after God, I am the one I need the most.
Thank you for listening.
Love,
Me.
You know what is hard? Missing a lot of things that everybody has stopped missing.
It is ironic to have your presence felt the most when you are not present at all. Silence is strange. Sometimes it holds you together and sometimes it breaks you down. But most of the times, I think, I break my own heart. Nobody is responsible for my expectations. Don't worry, though, most of the times my heartbreaks are about things like a Physics exam gone horribly wrong. But pain is pain, no matter how small. I think I saw my friend tearing up while she told me how she forgot everything right before the exam. Tears will be tears; they make everything seem worse or better.
Yes, yes, I know I should be studying. There is something about the winter wind, the cold ground and the ringing silence that gives me goosebumps; as if something fascinating is about to happen; as if life will start prancing and squealing any instant and this is only the calm before the storm. And the cat outside just shrieked hysterically, probably pouncing on another cat. I told you it felt like something was about to happen.
Time makes the future seem particularly far away, just when it is around the corner. I am very impatient right now and I really cannot wait for next Thursday. But it seems forever away.
Sometimes I feel like I am trying to catch up with things that don't have the time to wait for me, or even the patience to listen to my frantic footsteps as I follow them. And then I stop in my tracks, turn around and eventually go back to catching up with myself. I think, after God, I am the one I need the most.
Thank you for listening.
Love,
Me.
2 comments:
You sound so good, Aaisha. Like always, I don't really know what to say. I was studying a while ago and I took a little break to visit and blog and ended up reading this letter to unwind.
I love you.
Thank you for taking the time to read it, it means the world to me.
I love you and the girl in the red Hijab in your avatar as well. =D <3
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