A state of war in heart, in mind.

For my friend.

They say that it's not worth it, that I should leave it all alone,
But I've always stuck with hope, ignoring all their groans.
And now you've left me wondering, where do I stand in life?
Surely in a place that's full of dark, suspecting eyes.
It seems like the world's against all that I do & feel,
But one thing that it has done, is turned my heart to steel.
I contemplate in silence, I cry in all my prayers,
Here I am, I am to be, to face these worldly dares.
A state of war in heart, in mind, what am I supposed to do?
Dear God, I pray, you show me ways, I do not have a clue.
This way and that, distractions last, but not for very long,
You're there, here in the air, in every thought & song.
All I know, and all I hope: one day I'll make it through,
And at the end of this long road, just maybe I'll find you.
My God above, he listens to me, every passing day,
He's heard the cries, the pleas, the fear and everything I say.
And one day He's going to show me, what was meant to be,
Until then, I'm living, with every hope and dream.