I've been having so many disturbing dreams, especially about death. It's scaring me. :(

Wavering in and out of my dreams like a lost spirit

I find you where I cannot live,

And I live where I cannot find you.

Momentary illusions and you materialize for a while

But you cannot be

Here with me.

In eternal sleep you lie

So permanent in my thoughts.

Ghosts of memories and wafts of scents

that are almost non existent.

Those dreams; they pull me in.

Tie me down with chains

Until I need to scream:

Let me go.

How can it be a nightmare

When once you laughed with me

When once you took my hand and made me feel

Invincible.

And while I'm drifting off to sleep,

You catch me there.

When these eyes flutter open

In desperation, frustrations.

You're not any more.

And I could sit here all I want

counting down these

Three Sixty Five days

but you, you're still with me.