There are some parts I'm afraid to admit to myself. Some pieces that I hide from everyone I know. Some pieces that might push away the more essential pieces in this life. Yet I want them to know. Know everything. I can't bring myself to tell anyone. Would they still think the same of me if I told? I don't know what to do at times that particular piece from the past haunts me and tries to fit into the present. I want it to go away. I want it all to go away. I want to live for the now, but somehow it drags me back to where it all started. I want to let go, push it away, but it seems it will only go away if I reveal it. I don't know how and I don't know why. I just want it to go away from my life.

I want to forget everything about it, I want to undo it, and I want to not know it. I don't know if that will ever happen.

Random rant over.