Pretending.

I blind myself, I try to hide, I run away from doom,

Blinding myself to lies, the huge elephant in the room,

Ignoring what I can't avoid, I go on and put on my smile,

I pretend everything's okay, that I am safe from vile.

I pretend that I am fine, that I don't need the help,

I pretend that I am not ...lying to myself.