I see it everywhere: people moving on. People who were once inseparable, now never to have that same bond again. People adapt, people meet new people, and people forget. People change.

Change. Is that what I'm scared of? I know it is bound to happen someday. I'm not ready for this. 7 years, I've shared something with these people and after a few months I may never see some of them again. I know it will start all over again. I don't even know if I can make new friends.

Someone told me college is where it really begins. That protective roof of shelter of school is chopped off from your head, and your out on your own. You meet people of all kinds and you have to make choices. I know the people I'll meet there won't be as devoted to religon as they are here. I know I will stand out with my hijab. I'm ready to that, but I don't know if I'll be able to handle the pressure.

I'm so scared of growing up. But it has to happen. The fact that the farewell happens on 24th January just makes it more scary. I know everybody grows up in the end, and you have to leave behind things you love. Maybe I'm just having difficulty accepting it.

I love these people. They love me for who I am. They love me for what I've been. I know once we part, everybody will forget, but I don't want to lose these friends. And the fact that I might move out from this country is kind of just terrible.

I'm scared.