Once, I was drowning in my fears

and the twinkle in my eye disappeared

and I had no way to look on

my horizon seemed to have gone

and my whole life, seemed empty and bleak

each day and night, the answers I seek

But when, the darkness seemed so strong

and I couldn't go on

to the sky I raised my hands

making right what was so wrong

I found the strength to carry on

up to heaven where I belong

In life, there are lessons to be learned

with steadfastness, paradise Is earned

and if, all hope seems to be gone

just hold on till after the storm

and if you ask, what purpose have I

why am I here, and why do I cry?

And when, the darkness seems so strong

and you just cant go on

pray for your helping hand

you'll see the sun will rise again

you'll find the strength to carry on

up to heaven where you belong

Cos life is but a journey for us all

we cry, we laugh, we run sometimes we fall

but through it all, always recall

God never gives, a burden too tall

"I was telling R, and she was like really, you can never get a friend like her. And that's the truth. I can't ever get a friend like you. No one can, really. I don't know what I'm going to do without you."

Jusssst...needed to store this somewhere. It will be etched in my mind forever, but still, I need to be sure. This is just...I can't even explain how much I want us to be us forever. I can never ever hate you. Quite the opposite, actually. :)

Words have never meant more to me before. Never before. I don't even know what I've done. But thankyou, all the same. You don't know how much this means to me. These words will fuel me someday, and someday I'll be thankful that they meant that much to me.

I know I just laughed in the moment, but reflecting back, its just joy. We may have had ups & downs, but you know what? I know I'll always care. You know you will too.

Towns apart, or oceans, I promise I'll always be your friend. Always. Its funny, I hesitate whenever I use the words 'love you' for anyone, because I know I need to mean them to say them. But this time, I do mean them. And I will forever.

Friends Forever.

Sketchingg.

Haven't done that in a while.

Adding to the list of the amazing things I'm going to do....

AFTER THESE FREAKING EXAMS LEAVE ME ALONE.

Pheww. Kay, I'm done now.

Sometimes I want to run away.

Sometimes I want to run away

And take back all the words I say

To rewind the past and have my way

Bring back the moments and all those days

Push back the tears and this dismay

Sometimes I want to run away.

Hate me.

Please hate me
It makes so much sense that way
Please save me from torture
That haunts me every day.

Wondering.

Sometimes I wonder
If the person I miss
If the person I think about
All the time
Is either who you are?
Or who you were?
Or who I want you to be?

Sometimes I wonder
If this distance
Will keep growing
Until we're to far
To help it.
To help anything.
To never be the same.

Sometimes I wonder
If this change
Was meant to be
If you were just another person
If you were never mine.
If all we had was better left alone.
Never to look back.

Sometimes I wonder
If this person I've become
Is what you left of me
Or what you left with.
If this part will forever feel missing.
If you've taken permanent residence
In a corner of my mind.

Sometimes I wonder
If you hold on to me like I do to you
If I mean something to you
Like you do to me.
If you think about me once a while.
Probably far from reality,
But I wonder.

Letting go.

Holding on is hurting

Yet I can’t let go.

This pain is breaking me.

And still, I let it flow.

They have houses but do they have homes?

Zooming past with mocking smiles

Living fantasies, living lies

Gold & silver clasped to their bones

They have houses, but do they have homes?

Live for themselves, lost on their own

Thousands to spend on, yet all alone

That infinite fortune can’t stop their groans

They have houses, but do they have homes?

Passing away the days that come by

In greed, in fear, only stopping to cry

Smiles are empty, even solitude is alone,

They have houses but do they have homes?

No - the yes.

You want, but do you need?
You kill, but is there blood?
You have sight, but is there vision?
You smile, but are you happy?
You say, but do you mean?
You hate, but is there reason?
You get your way, but do you achieve?
You fall, but do you learn?
You walk, but is there aim?
You talk, but do you act?
You scream, but do you hear?
You dominate, but are you fearless?
You believe, but is that the truth?
You promise, but do you fulfill?
You hear, but do you listen?

You exist but do you live?
Isn't No the yes to this?

The silence is deafening.

No words, no sounds

Stillness surrounds.

Every breath inhaled

Turning stale.

The silent screams

The reality in dreams

Oh, pray to the heavens,

Silence defeans.

So I decide

to close my eyes

and see the world

in a different light.